Trust God

This is what I'm always afraid of. When one of my loved ones gets physically ill because of an illness. Like in the movies and dramas we watch on televisions. I never thought that I could actually feel the emotions felt by those who experienced lost. Well, I thought about it, but not this early. It really is painful, worse than physical pain.

I'm still not sure about the final diagnosis. But I'm hoping that it's treatable and far beyond worse. I'm just waiting for her to come home and tell us what her doctor told her. This is nerve-wrecking!

Another problem that arose was my father's reaction in handling the new problem. We're not that fortunate. We don't have all the things we want in this world. We're just an average family, maybe below average. My father is the only one working in the family. A real estate agent. But he only earns when he is able to sell a house or a lot. Right now, we have a financial problem. I feel useless since I already have finished my studies and am a registered nurse, but have no job.

This problem of ours may not be as serious as the others out there, but it's serious for us. I know that these problems we have right now are all part of God's plans for us. I almost lost it, but I prayed and it strengthened me. I shouldn't let these problems take over me. I have to be strong not just for myself, but also for my family. Things happen for a reason, but never forget to pray during the saddest or happiest part of life. I know that I'll get a job soon that can sustain the needs of my family. I just have to be patient. Trust God no matter what.

God is Good

When I was in my high school days, I was a pessimist. I believed that no one loved me, that I was an outcast, and that I was completely alone. I almost tried to kill myself once. But all of it changed when my classmates and friends introduced me to God when I was in my fourth-year of high school. I was totally enlightened. My friends and I scheduled a bible study during Saturdays, after our CAT formation in school. The first Christian song that was introduced to me was "Heart of Worship," until now it's still one of my favorites. I started reading the bible that time too, from Genesis. I was also a lector in our little chapel here in our subdivision.

Things changed when I reached college. We no longer had a bible study because one of my friends died due to a heart disorder, and we were all busy, our schedules didn't match. So, for three years, I felt empty again, but it's different from before. I resumed to read the bible and to pray every night, but it was inconsistent. Then, I missed going to church every Sunday, and wasn't able to serve God. I was lost again. But I knew that God was still with me. I knew He's still there to help me get back up.

When I knew that I could finally graduate after the four intense years of college with a medal, my heart went back to God. I thanked Him a lot, so many times. Then, I started to read the bible again. I also became a part in the Torch Bearer group of Salvation Army. Being in that group helped me so much to come back to God again. It made my faith stronger. I could feel His presence inside of me, telling me what to do and don't do. I also resumed to go to church every Sunday and to serve God in our chapel as a lector.

Last 2012, I received a lot of blessings from Him. I graduated with a medal, speaking in front on behalf of the entire class. I passed the Nursing Licensure Exam. Then, my father sold several houses as a real estate agent. A lot of good things happened that year, and it was all thanks to Him.

It is a life-changing experience when I started believing in Him. Until now, I am still thankful for what I have and don't have. I believe that He has plans for me and not to worry in the future. God is tremendously good!